Homeless 2nd year

Minneapolis MN

Description

I'd like to think that I'm still part of the community. I'm so tired of living out of my pilot SUV. I found a box truck that I cleaned out and can sleep in. No power. Looking for a propane heater. I've been in the methodone program over a year now. I will not stay in a shelter. I can't handle people. I can't make any kind of money to get a place. It's such a struggle to never sleep well and most times I try to fall asleep I pray I won't wake up. There seems to be so many places I could plug in a heater and just be safe some where. I walk around and wonder why I can't talk to someone and ask for a favor. I'm not a murderer or pedophile. I'm just a lonely guy who is in the community and trying to make something happen but can't. Life sucks when you see so much excess and waste and feel like your not worth the litter that blows in the yards and finds a resting place at the bottom of your fence. I'm jealous of litter. They say the homeless have mental problems, I don't know that I do but many do. It's a long, long waaay to the top of the world, though it's only a short fall back down. I loved it when Jerry sang that one.