Reading Beckett on the M train

Ridgewood NY

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It was almost Christmas last year (or possibly late January), and I was waiting on the west 4th platform. I normally walk toward where my train stop is, but someone was playing saxophone for money and it sounded nice so I walked toward him. I saw you and suddenly felt extremely nervous. You had taken your mask down for a second for some reason and made eye contact with me and I think I looked away, just because I felt intensely attracted to you. When the train pulled up, I went to walk toward the car you were going to go into, and then you went toward mine so I shamelessly turned back. I ended up sitting across from you and you were reading a Samuel Beckett book/play don't remember which one. You were around 30, had blonde hair, laced boots and a navy jacket. My heart was racing the whole time, which felt insane, and I have never felt that way toward a complete stranger. You got off on the Forest stop. I saw you two days later after a big snowstorm when I was with my partner. You were trudging in the snow on Myrtle Avenue in Ridgewood. I haven't seen you since but, I look for you. To be clear, I'm a woman, artist, attractive, was reading something too but I can't remember what...