You don’t deserve this…

Portland OR

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It’s been a long time, mi amor. I can never speak to you again. I can’t tell you this. I can’t tell my friends or family this either because they will lose their minds to hear me say this after all you’ve done to me. I have to say it somewhere though. I think about you every day. Mostly, I’m angry at you. I’m so hurt still. And you DESERVE my anger. 110%. I also have lived long enough and have loved a few people very deeply throughout my life to know that the love we share is rare in a lifetime. Very rare. It’s been a long time now and I have not looked into another’s eyes that have ignited me the ways yours did. I have not had another’s lips touch mine that sent me into the ecstasy that yours did. I have not felt so perfectly at home with another human since you. I have not had another body interlock so perfectly with mine- just lying next to you and more- since I was with you. I have had feelings for others- and it’s nice- but it has been fleeting and they pale in comparison to my feelings for you. I feel simultaneously lucky and cursed. Lucky, because how many people in the world can say that they really were in love like this? I will lie on my death bed one day and I will think back on you and I will know that I was truly in love while I was here on this earth. Cursed because I know for a fact that I will indeed love another very deeply again, but it will never be what I had with you. Cursed because I love who are at your core (so much), but can never forgive you for your abhorrent behavior- nor should I. Maybe we can try again in the next life if there is one. Goodbye from someone who is crazy and vehemently in love with you.