missing all connections it seems

Dallas TX

Description

Life changed when the autoimmune disorder came about. Talk about missing connections, any and all connections. Not sure but, becoming physically transformed into someone, who I would say, is hideous at best. Coming from someone who was capable, smart enough, physically able and all around normal person then turning into a weak minded, low self worth, low esteem, no mojo at all person. Almost 20 years of this and I don't want to do it for a day more let alone 20 more years. I hurt, fatigued most of the time, brain damaged from medications. Fingernails are half missing and looks like I have fungus on them. I really look gross. My skin flakes all over the place, all the time, everywhere. I itch over 70% of my body. It hurts, it bleeds. I am outrageously tired. I am ridiculously lonely. My life is not a life anymore. I feel like I live on an island, all alone... Just waiting for it all to just be over. But it isn't going to just be over. First there is more, then more, and then more. Sigh.