Thoughts of you have started up again

Alameda CA

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You’ve always acted like you already knew me. Even since the first time I remember meeting you, you had a knowing look in your eyes and a secretive smirk on your face like you knew me from somewhere and were just waiting for me to recognize you. I always got the impression that you were disappointed in me or that I was letting you down for not remembering you. I’m a generally shy and introverted person by nature and you are gregarious and friendly. I have no idea how to talk to you or act like myself around you because I can’t tell if you are just being friendly or if there is something more in the way you look at me and the way you smile at me. Sometimes when you look at me, I see you do a double take as if I surprise you. It’s almost like there’s something that you want to say to me, but you don’t. Then last Spring it felt like you were always showing up places that you knew I might be and you went out of your way to make a point to talk to me. You are handsome and charming and I’m sure women always think you’re flirting with them so I thought that maybe it was all in my head, but it kept on happening to the point where I couldn’t help myself from looking for you everywhere I went. And sometimes you were there. Then I stopped seeing you for awhile and I was able to put thoughts of you away until last week when I ran into you. Now I can’t stop thinking about you again. I can’t stop replaying every encounter and interaction and analyzing every look and every conversation searching for clues or answers to the puzzle of how you feel about me. I’m crazy, I know, but I also feel like you are on here and you leave messages for me to the universe here. So I’m leaving this message for you to the universe here too so that maybe once I get these words out I will be free of these thoughts of you.