The pain is awful

Colorado Springs CO

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It is killing me that we parted ways. I can't live without you and I'm not sure I can live with you. We were only together a short time but it truly did feel like eternity. The way we pretty much already knew what each other was thinking amazed me. I know our astrology predictions warned us of this but neither of us gave it any attention. Maybe we should have. Maybe if I was not such a stubborn ass or if I hadn't come down with being scared of being rejected and hurt. You had a lot of patience for the way I acted and for that I want to thank you. I now understand why towards the end you became distant and passively angry with me. I completely deserved everything you threw my way. Will this pain ever be gone or am I stuck with the pain and the forever loneliness I have unfortunately chosen. I hope someday you will forgive me. I wish we could make it work yet frankly I am all out of ideas and you are so bitter it will never be the same. I love you my Apple Dumpling and I hope you find nothing but happiness in your life. Godspeed and goodbye my love.