a burning hill

Portland OR

Description

i’m so angry with myself for forgiving you. i’m so angry that i gave you another chance, not because i’m bitter, but because once again you ruined it and broke my heart in the process. you’ve caused me a level of sadness i didn’t realize was possible, insecurities i’ve never fathomed existed. you took me from me. you took me from everything and couldn’t even give me faithfulness. you abused me, i can say that confidently now that im out of your grasp, you abused me and gaslit me into thinking i was crazy and you were cheating the entire time. you played a whole different level of mind games, you genuinely tormented me. and even after all this pain you’ve inflicted on me i feel guilty for telling you to get out of my life. im not letting myself feel guilty anymore. you don’t deserve a drop of my kindness. i hope you rot.