I want to be cold as ice...not stuck and slow moving...

McAllen TX

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I feel sad. I feel I'm not sure what it is but i need a smoke. You know what I mean. I feel my mood is down and i want to vent maybe to you. I just am tired of being used and abused. Im a 36 yr old female and i am lost and a bit confused. I have been beat and torn down emotionally and physically and now i feel i have nothing left to give even myself. I want to start over. Yet i like who i became because of the suffering. Why do i not love anyone unconditionally anymore. Because i have a child i am to love that way. Why are men that seek me seeming to be so very very fake. Why do they want me to fall in love just to throw me away? Please if your awake message me. I want to be up in smoke.