Our toxicity is going to end up killing me

Beaverton OR

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7 years we've dragged this off and on. More so me I guess being as I'm the only reason we see each other at all. Why can't I stop thinking about you when I know you never think of me? Why do I still want to spend every second with you when you avoid spending any of yours with me? Everything you do completely contradicts what you say you feel for me. So why do I still think you love me? You've already got strangulation charges since we've been together and then last night you threw your coffee table at me which hit me in the head causing what looks to be a murder scene at your place. Everyone is telling me I probably should have went and got stitches in my head. Their probably right. I was just hoping it would slowly bleed me out to death cuz then I'd finally stop obsessing over someone who doesn't want a damn thing to do with me. Please just end it already... Put me out of this misery once and for all