Life falling apart

Billings MT

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Hey everyone, I wanted to share this in hopes of advice or another soul in the same boat. Ive reached the point where I can't make it to work on time, emotionally I'm spent, mentally I'm spent, this working everyday and driving to and from in tiring. I'm sick of this life, I don't want too much stuff, I don't love Billings anymore, I want to leave and travel, go.. my soul calls for it, but I'm a coward, in debt from drug use recently, lost my will to get a job in construction or even fast food. I'm tired, I want to leave and experience life as a hippy on the road traveling, playing guitar and meeting beautiful people and making love to magical women.. Im afraid, don't know how to support myself or my dog of I tried.. I have no friends that feel the same, hell I don't really have any friends cause I can't connect with people normally. Suicide sounds pretty nice at this point too, just to sleep forever. I have lost my will to want better for myself. Please someone, come my way, help me find the path I'm supposed to be on. I cannot grow like the sunflower I'm supposed to be. My energy is dwindling on the edge. About to lose it all and I'm somewhat calmed by the thought of loosing everything. Help