I wish he loved me like he says he does

Colorado Springs CO

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If he loved me like he said he does he wouldn't push me away like he does. He wouldn't make me hurt like he does. I miss him when he isn't next to me, but when he is next to me I know he wants to be somewhere else. He asked me to merry him, but he didn't really mean it. He hurts so much I feel it in my soul. He gave me something I'll never be able to get rid of, insecurities. He is jealous of me, not jealous for me. He put his hands on me and made me feel so helpless. Why do I love him like I do? Why does he lie to me like he does? Why can't we just get along?