To all my extended sober fam

SaBell near Wallace, Golden CO

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This sober life is rare and it sucks sometimes. Look at the dopers on the train and in the tents and on the streets- it's hard to watch our fellow homosapien take it all so easy and give it all up with the same carefree attitude. People are killing each other, and we care about them for one reason or the next. So take it a moment at a time, maybe even a day at a time, because the dispensary offers no real relief beyond the halflife of the high, to say nothing of the aftermath of a chemical reaction designed to last longer and all this. No sense in my being political, or overly vigilant; I have choices and I appreciate the opportunity to breathe another day. I basically want the same for you. I don't know you. My name is Christopher Jackson and sometimes my temper gets out ahead of my intentions, a temper heated on the goals of rage fueled by the spirit of self-loathing, and I only share that negativity to express just how personally I take my own slice of the shortcomings rising from a lack of capacity for all the new problems (old problems?) we invent. I feel like there's no way out but through and I have no wish to run through friends or fellow humanoids the way I have run through my pot, my booze, my shards, my family, my life in general... of these, my life is the only thing I can honestly claim. At least halfway, that is. I feel alone whether I smoke or dry myself out because it's all a struggle, all a fight, all alone, regardless of the company I keep... please laugh at the pathetic nature of the message and be better than apathy, better than needing the entitlement of removing self from reflection. Fight, sure, but fight ego if possible, by smiling when it hurts, by moving gently and deliberately when the world is turbulent, and if you must act definitively, be absolutely sure that the course of action chosen is the only answer. Aggression is only useful when properly channeled... which is a quote from a movie. Aggression is an excellent default for a leader, so says Jocko Willink- he doesn't say hostility though. I hope that if you find yourself confronted with an animate enemy that your heart gives you the courage to see the similarity in our situation as the result of fixed stars and the collision of the comets, and although wise as a mamba in the Congo, that that very experience and speedy reaction allows you to be gentle as though you were saving your own life. Because we are. Smoke em if you need em. I patiently await your company... and I'll accept it however you may offer it. One love.