Invisible and alone

Portland OR

Description

I have been alone for 14 years, I fear the pain of getting close to anyone... I became sick last year, and I just got done with 16 days in the hospital... I was hurt so very bad, and fear has kept me in my own madness... I long to spend time with someone, but where I was afraid of getting hurt so long, now to let anyone close, knowing my health problems... As of now, I don't have a memory to look back on, during my bad days. I am a nice person, but I have been put down, treated like I was a scamming lowlife. I am a lady who has end stage kidney failure, I do panhandle, but I don't make to much... I try selling soda with my walker... But over the last 2 weeks I started having a hard time breathing.. so now I'm on oxygen, I am not a beautiful lady, I have thinning hair, because of the anemia. I am invisible every day. You pass me, sun beaten, heart sick, wishing someone cared that I was standing on that corner... I may not be on that corner for to much longer