Rhonda, are you there?

Pocatello ID

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All I know is that you’re being proactive and making efforts for yourself. I was so ecstatic to hear something, anything, that I made sure to get out of your way while you keep flourishing. I hope you are. In fact, I wholeheartedly trust that you’re thriving in whatever you take on. I hope you find no disrespect in me using the name Rhonda. I think you will forever be so much more. I’m a fool for putting us in a situation where I can only hope you stumble across this missed connection post. I would love to hear from you. I would love to know if/how you’ve found happiness. Maybe you’ve found love even, I understand that would be natural. Something you deserve after these last few years. Something I failed at, even when I found that same feeling. That cholo hippie on the porch. I knew she would be something special. You’ve already given me so much more than I could have imagined. Thank you. If you have found a fulfilling love, I don’t mean to intrude. Whether with a partner or with yourself-I have no ill intent to sabotage your peace and happiness. I was hoping to gain and, if possible, give some closure. I know it’s more than I’m owed or deserve. Maybe you feel you don’t need any further? For me, it feels like “pause.” I was so distant and removed that the realization of loss has slowly crept in with each restless night. Now that I am mentally back, I’m ready to face the “stop.” The “eject” even. What have you. Sorry I couldn’t resist a shitty metaphor or a novel. July 4th painfully passed, and still I haven’t been able to fall out of love. And that’s ok. I’m not ashamed to admit the pickle of emotion I’m in. There’s so much more shame I’m carrying. All I ask is the opportunity to apologize. Should you have requests of your own, I would go to great lengths. I’m here if you find this. I’m here. I got a tattoo that reminds me of your initial. If you feel you need to verify this is me with pure intentions-message with your first initial. I’ll send a picture of your initial back so you know it’s me. Hope you find this. Hope you’re ready to let me go, give me direction, or anything at all. You were my best friend. And now I feel like my only friend. I’m so sorry to have lost touch.