El Reno

Oklahoma City OK

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So my nerves got the best of me because I thought hey he’s cute and seems amazingly sweet but what if it’s all a trick because that is all I have ever known…..you know when it’s to good to be true it probably is…we seem to vibe so far and I’m interested..I need so badly for it to be what it seems but my stomach got really nervous and knotted up and I froze as if I could see things play out and once again not so good for me because reality is I could really like you and it end up just some game your running just a hustle because that is all I have seen for so long that I can’t see things another way….why do I feel like you should have pulled up and just reached out your hand and said “come on” as if you know my fear…or that I am being controlled by PTSD and your breaking me free of it because you somehow know I need you too….if it was a game, well..//.but if it wasn’t you seemed to be like a knight in shining armor to me and I froze, I’m sorry, I always prevent the good things and endings in the bad and I just need a good one thing…..but I’m smart I know the game and looking at the bigger picture I see how set up it could be for the wrong type of game, right?