Finally learning how to mourn us

Portland OR

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I still don’t exactly know what happened, but for whatever reason, I place the blame squarely on myself. Covid threatened to tear us apart and I was unable to prevent it. I had no idea what you needed. I still to this day don’t know. I think of you every day, and I long to reach you. I can’t tell if it’s my conscience or my insecurity that precludes me from telling you that I love you. But I do, and I think I always will. My only solace is that maybe you are happier without me, or that we are happily together in some other timeline. You are my greatest heartbreak. I’m learning to replace yearning with mourning, but I’m certain I’ll always love you. J