to enjoy life

Portland OR

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you didn't know when it happened, but you're the person my ex cheated on me with. please help them take accountability for their actions. please don't create a false reality for them to escape into. I have many intrusive thoughts about you two, especially in moments I'd otherwise be enjoying. please it would be so much easier for me to "enjoy life" if I knew you had empathy for my situation. they tell me it's all my fault that they're turning to you but it's also you and them that's led me to this mental health crisis. it's not how I want to feel, or how I want to act, but every day it feels like I'm losing self control. please I just really hope you understand how quickly everything changed, and how scary it is for me. i understand how it's difficult to comprehend, but we were both lied to, and your relationship is not healthy. I'm not well and I'm sorry you're in this situation. I really wish things weren't this way. I just want to go back in time. I want to wake up from this nightmare, and I wish we had all handled things differently.