Seeking kind guidance

Portland OR

Description

Hello my name is Alice and I’m 33 yo female who has been living here in Portland for 7 years. Long story short, my long term ( boyfriend) partner unexpectedly passed away 5 weeks ago from a horrific car accident. I worked for his very small business doing his books and helping him install windows. We were not married and we didn’t have much savings ( we traveled as much as possible as often as possible ) and the house is in his name and I’m very supportive of everything going to his children. Thankfully I have no credit card debt, unfortunately he bought me a brand new BMW 3 months ago in my name. We put 15,000 down and my payments are $978 a month. He really was the one who did our bills I just worked at home on the phones and helped him as needed. He was a wonderful provider and now I feel so lost and I’m horrified I’m going to ruin my perfect credit. I have really long hair and it’s so tangled from laying in bed. I’ve just been sleeping a lot. I’m pretty sad. I ate some mushrooms last week and it helped me breathe again. I have to leave the house soon and I can’t even begin to come up with a plan for work. I’ve always just been a home maker, before my boyfriend I was married for 9 years. I know life hurts and I’m thankful I had him for the time I did. Now I have to fix my hair. I don’t want to cut it. Please send me positive energy and maybe any helpful suggestions. Also, does anyone have any experience driving Lyft Lux? I don’t want to lose this beautiful car and I need ideas. Thanks for your time.