follow up from a river of tears

Augusta KS

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I wrote a river of tears back in April for my dear son who I lost on April 13 2021 Today is May 11 2022 and he would have been 46 today but instead of a river of tears today I cried as I sat there talking to his picture and remember the happy things in our life's, the smiles, the growing pains of live, the way he could bring peace with a smile and a laugh when his siblings were fighting, but most of all the way he would look at me and say "It's going to be all right Mom". So today we are going to cry happy tears and pray he is at peace were ever you go when you pass away. I also wanted to tell you about a letter I got from a mom who wrote to thank me for A River of Tears. She said she had 2 son's who are Veterans from the same place as my son who had made a pack to commit suicide because they just could not go on with the horror of what they saw and did in the name of peace. They both had diagnosis of PTSD among other things and one son had lost a leg and was not adjusting to life again after everything. They were going to do the deed as they call it on April 19 this year. She called them both and said she had something to show them that she had read and hoped she never who have to do what the poor lady she read about had to go though so they both came to lunch under much duress to find their mother crying over what she read. She read them the river of tears post and told them she was so happy that her son's were alive even if they were having hard days and that she hoped that they would come to her for anything they ever needed and that she would not be able to survive the lost of her son's like I had, she said that she saw tears in their eyes as they read the river of tears again and asked her why? She told them I think this lady is like me I gave birth to you and I brought you up to be the men you are today and I hope I will never be around to see you die. I know that it would kill me. A parent should always go before their children. It would tear my soul apart to have you die before me just like it did to this lady who wrote a river of tears. She said they both sat there in silence and ate lunch then they both broke down and told her what they had planned to do and could not go through with it as they could see the pain and sorrow it would bring her. She said that instead they have formed a group support program with the help of a VA counselor an there are 62 Veterans in the coupe and they are calling Luis's group because they wrote to ask what his first name was. They are also going to try to get support from the city were they live to start a veterans community to help with housing, transportation food and other needs that veterans need. Both her and her husband and son's sent me a big thank you, for making them see that life can go on and we can help one another. For me it one minute one hour one day at a time with a prayer and a small I love you and miss you every day. So for me I pray for every one out there that need it and if all you ever need to talk or unload I am here. God bless each and everyone and just remember there is always someone somewhere who cares.