Magical Moments

Massapequa NY

06 December, 2020

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I keep thinking, "When it's over," and then abruptly I realize, "Perhaps it won't be for me." This possibly could be the world I will know for the remainder of my days. Of course, the threat of Covid will conclude at some indefinite date in the future, but since I am in the category termed "vulnerable due to age," perhaps, I will not re-emerge into the exciting new world. All this realistic pondering leads me to make some decisions. I cannot allow myself to view lockdown with constant negativity. The unanticipated time I have spent virtually alone has allowed me to complete another book, and also learn some new aspects of word processing. I wouldn't have accomplished either without the mandatory isolation. I have established a totally unanticipated relationship with a distant cousin and find to my amazement, we are truly kindred souls. We share the same love of Merton, and liturgy as well as literature despite our physical paths never crossing. What an unexpected joyful surprise via an amazing ability to become acquainted despite distance. I reluctantly abandoned my 50 year old treasured exercise bike and invested in a new model. I now comprehend why updates are so positive. The new bicycle has brought a surprising dimension to the forty minutes we share daily. Change is good, I finally conclude despite my initial pessimism. Obviously, I cannot predict what the next season of life will bring for me, but just in case, it is time for my adieu, I am determined to enjoy today. Despite lockdown, I am blessed with lunching daily (via phone) with my favorite daughter. Her noon visit has become the highlight of my day. I also enjoy a weekly Friday night FaceTime visit with Will. His constant joyful optimism coats my world with pleasure. I have learned to indulge in new recipes found via the Internet and embrace each new culinary challenge. Successes are shared with coffee, conversation and friends. Failures are forgotten and not discussed. I admit it is beyond the scope of my ability to change the future either of the time I have been allotted or the lingering length of the Covid challenge. However, I. can and will refuse to view either or both through dark glasses coated with gloom. Every minute I am blessed on this earth is one I must begin to view with joy and totally embrace the gift of each magical moment.