Looking for a spiritual mentor/community

Minneapolis MN

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I don't even know where to start. I've lived my life over 20 years in opposition towards religion and God and in turn ended up killing my own spirituality with in. I'm in search of a church/minister or someone (open minded ) who can deal with that and that I'm gonna be rough around the edges. It's something that's hard for me to seek out publicly because I may have some social consequences considering the standpoint that I've taken for so long. I'm just done with it all. I realize all along that it's really been a long deep seated resentment I've held for far too long with in based on some of my rigid and abusive up bringing and also Ive realized that I have used the misrepresentations of sexism and bigotry as excuses to knock anyone or anything spiritual. When I meditate and pray recently it's been coming up alot that I need to be rebaptised, I've always seen it as a cleansing. Some where the words " create in me a clean heart" resonate in my mind alot lately. Again I must express I'm coming from the darkness, there were things I opened myself up to along time ago and tried to mess with that I shouldn't have. Maybe I'm getting old, maybe it's that I'm a father now. I just feel it in my heart that it's time. I can no longer afford to be complacent. I don't know if this sounds silly and I hope this finds the right person. I live in Minneapolis and I hope to perhaps find someone/something local.