A River of Tears I cry Today

Wichita KS

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This is for my beloved son. A river of tears I cry and ask why? A baby born on the long ago day, who became a toddler and loved to play. A young child who cried on his first day at school and asked why. the answer was so you can lean to get along. Play you did friends you made, then it was time to go on to high school, and again you said why. Again I said so you can lean to be a man. You laughed and said okay mom,but don't you know that I am. Against my better judgement you wanted to do ROTC, so I signed the papers to be. The first girlfriend, the first dance, the break up, then the first love. Graduation came and so proud I was to see the man you had become. Then you came to me and said I signed up to go fight for my country, So I smile and let you go, even though A river of tears did flow. A happy carefree man you went and home came a lost soul, Again a river of tears did flow. I watch you struggle so, I saw you sit and stare away and tears fall each day, and you would ask Why do we fight so? They call it PTSD I call it hell, you would say, and a river of tears I cried each day to see the pain and lost look each day. I asked why lord do you do this to him and so many like him? They tell me you are given only what you can bear, but a boy who became a man was lost upon that shore. Then one year ago on 04/13/2021 I woke to find I lost my son. He is at peace they say to me,but my soul has lost a piece and A river of tears I cry and ask God WHY? A child should not go first. And every day A river of tears I cry and grief they say will get better each day, I cry today like I did then for the baby, child and man who went away that day and took a part of me with him. I still ask god Why, at times I feel you there and say I hope you are resting peacefully and know you are missed and loved so dear, for a river of tears I cry today. I hope we meet again on some shore and smile for a river of tears no more. I wrote this for every mother and father who knows the lost of a child can never go away and inside or out we cry each day. I pray for you who know and the men and women who are out there who hurt so. God bless you all and know I cry for you all today. All I ask is if you can say a prayer for him and all our children who went to fight happy and laughing and came back with lost looks in their eyes and still ask WHY.