Hot blonde

Portland OR

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I’m going to miss wiping the tears off your face. There were so many tears in our time together. I’m going to miss planning my day around you. You took up all the time in my head and I’m not sure what to do now that you’re gone. I wish I had the courage to talk to you and see you again. So much love and so much pain. We shared everything but there was still so much more. I can’t shake the feeling that this isn’t the end even though I know it is. We spent too much time in the past. Our relationship was like an explosion and we destroyed ourselves in the process. I hate how much we hurt each other. I wish I knew how to love you in the right way. I wish you didn’t say such mean things. I wish I didn’t make so many mistakes. I just wanted to say I’m sorry. I think we’re terribly addicted to one another. I’m trying to let go but I’m just alone with my thoughts. I honestly have no idea what you are thinking or how you feel about me. There’s so much stuff I can’t look at the same after you. I would’ve sacrificed my life for you and I think that was part of the problem. I lost myself and you at the same time. We had something special (even if it was toxic at times) I still check my phone expecting a text or missed call from you, withdrawls I guess. Have a good summer