In a lobby

Colorado Springs CO

Description

I sometimes have this dream. Where Im just in this corner of a hospital waiting room. More like a room after the waiting room. We’re on the phone and we are talking out our last times of contact to each other. The way of just so casually talking about important tests and details as if it we were reading off our morning to do lists. I’m so thankful it was in an email it made me think you hated me at the time as much as I hated you. Such a waste of energy that was. But then I’m at the nursing desk and you’re on speaker. I’m bent over the desk trying to get as clear as possible and I’m just saying I’m sorry. Just begging like I was before god. Like without you I had no hope. I’d be lost. The room just gets darker around me but I already have tunnel vision on the phone and you never hang up. It goes on for far too long but you’re always there. It never disconnects.