long reach

Los Angeles CA

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gonna be vague as fuck but i miss you like a lot, dude i miss sitting around all night talking. i miss hearing your voice. i regret not asking you more questions, but i got nervous because you were so cute and i didn't want to derail the conversation by blathering on about how adorable and interesting i think you are. cuz i thought about that a lot. i miss your smile. the dimples killed me. your eyes. killed me. making you laugh was my favorite. listening to you talk about the things you love. the best. listening to your philosophies. your perspectives and shit. walking to the store. i miss the way you would suddenly get excited about something. or when you'd like, look at me suddenly with that face that was like "idea!" i miss all the little ways you surprised me. i miss your sense of humor. i miss your grouchiness. i'm trying really hard not to think too hard about all this too cuz i know it's bad for me and i feel like a crazy person. like how well did i actually know you? i ask myself that constantly. i feel like i did. but also maybe i didn't? learned some things about you through third parties. but it was stuff that made me just miss you more, but also made me realize that there's a lot i didn't know. i feel kinda stupid, but i dunno how else to express this cuz reaching out is like-- like i try. but i don't know. i should know better. buuuuut i don't. becaaaaause i don't know. reasons. lots of reasons. too many for a dumb missed connections post. also i'm doing dumb shit now. like this. and being dumb. cuz i have all this stuff in my heart and nowhere to put it. buuuuut yeah anyway i really miss you. i can't drive around in that neighborhood anymore because i don't know what i'll feel or what'll come back. all i know is that i think of you all the time and it's messing with my heart. every stupid thing reminds me of you. i'm trying to keep moving forward and i am and stuff, but still i think about you all the time. iiiii will never forget you. but i dunno if you (not YOU you, but also yeah YOU you) come across this and vibe with it shoot me something. i'm nice. mostly. i can be kind of cunty. but mostly i'm alright.