Stop smoking support wanted

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Last year my Dr. said I have the beginning stages of emphysema...(I don't have any symptoms that I am aware of, maybe I do and am just used to it or something, but the x-ray of my lungs showed this beginning stages). She also said I'm "still young" and "lungs heal"....I'm 50 years old and have been smoking for 30 something years :( I've read that emphysema is incurable and progressive, and am wondering why she would give me that little bit of hope if it's basically pointless :( I am terrified and having severe depression/anxiety about it, feeling doomed.....but also, there is a small desperate hope that when I quit smoking, things could really and truly get better? COULD I save my own life?! I tried to quit last week, and failed...I promised myself I would quit this month. I tried again a few days ago, failed again....and of course the anxiety just makes me want to smoke. Has anybody else been through something similar to this, and could talk about it? I feel lost and alone....my family smokes and I live with them, I can't move away from it. I can't stand this any more, I don't want to smoke, it's disgusting. Thank you......