I miss my husband...

Broomfield CO

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I saw you yesterday sitting in that spot as if to hold it against me forever in response to how I felt yesterday. While I would love to say thank you for showing your face I don't know why you choose to hate me for moments I can't change. That I couldn't control because I just had brain surgery. There's this thing called, "in sickness and in health" you never honored that with me. I'm glad you found that easy to give to the other woman around you...good for them. I was never worthy of receiving that. But still my heart hurts. I was watching a movie about Elephants and how they can die if they're alone. I already feel like that, my kids hate me, my dog is old and will probably die by the time the kid moves out. I'm not marrying anyone else, so I'm just a ticking time bomb of tumors and torture. I'm considering running away to the desert to find one of those Elephants, maybe we need each other. >e