His Dream

Meridian ID

Description

Everything I want to be and everything I’m slowly doing, has been for me. I would have done for you too. I won’t stay here forever. There isn’t anything left for me here. A few more years and I’ll be where I worked so hard to get to. One step at a time, one set back after another, but still I’m moving forward. It’s just without someone to cheer me on. Without you. I don’t want anyone else. No one else seems to connect. I don’t seem to connect. So I’ll keep working on changing into who I want to be and the kind of person I want to look like. I wasted so much time keeping everyone else afloat. I’m still behind. You made me feel safe. You made me feel like everything was going to be ok. That’s why I was so quiet. I knew you would walk away. I didn’t want to get attached but it was so hard with you. Soothing you, soothed me. Making you smile, made me happy. Maybe that was selfish? I only know that I still think of you at times and the space you left in my life, it aches. It won’t go away. I found my joy in you.