swing life away

Missoula MT

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Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up? Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck? Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost? I'll show you mine if you show me yours first Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words There's so much I want and even more that I need to say... I'm so sorry for the confusion, hurt, worry, destruction I put our family, your parents and our children thru. I was so sick mentally unable and drowning in postpartum, I was unable to ask for or communicate the nature of how serious my need for help was. I was angry at myself and confused why me, why this time, we had built up a wonderful life together you and your parents had given me not only the materialistic things but the love and family I never had and also sought after, everything should have been perfect yet I was so sick. I should have listened... Moving back was by far one of the biggest downfalls. After my "father" did what he did and made extremely untrue accusation I was so hopeless and felt like I had to choose... My family.. you and our newborn or my son and I just couldn't wrap my already unwell mind around any of it and so I made the biggest downfalls of my life... I chose to escape it all and having no idea how bad it would become. I owe you a very big detailed and sincere apologies for so many times I just couldn't get it together, all the dishonest and nights full of worries anger and pain. Unfortunately I put us in a position where speaking to each other is not an option. I also want to give you so much positive feedback for never switching up for not put this on our child to worry over and not putting any type of wedge or judgement between her and I. I hope one day down the road as I continue to heal and show totally constantly and stability that you can find it in your heart and in a safe manor for everyone that we can get back to a point of trust and I'll be offered a chance to really make amends to you and your family and possibly move forward towards again having a close but healthy co parenting friendship. You are such a wonderful person, friend, son and father and you forever have a huge impact on my life. Thanks for just being you!