There’s now not even the memories…

San Antonio TX

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You made your choice, your new family and fancy fake life for a pathetic woman who can’t stand to be alone for any time at all and be a strong person so she buys her men with her blood money….REAL men actually can’t be bought, real women either to be honest. It’s supposed to be about love and respect and loyalty and honesty, none of which you’ve ever given me much of in all these years, yet you had me still all to yourself, just yours like you always asked of me, until today… You didn’t even respect me enough to get that to me or Mama, there’s room in her garage and at your place, I’ve kept it all for years!!!! And no appreciation and no respect, nothing at all just silence or insults when I ask you to man up and be responsible finally….but nothing!!! And NOW, you’re going on another trip with this conniving broad and y’all’s new grand baby and this whole fake show family you say you gotta play your role in for at least the year, this sham you have tried to convince me you claim is just a means to your end and y’all have never been intimate just gotta look like a real couple, so no one thinks she’s alone again after this last divorce….I mean I tried to buy all you said I did but all that’s happened and all I know and have seen now, no, the whole thing is just so sad and pathetic…but, oh well, I hope the end financial result you are getting for your “part” in her charade was worth losing the only really truly good AND very strong woman who stayed by and defended you and had your back all these almost 15 years, always there with and for you, ALWAYS, thru all the hard stuff, dealt with all the lies, the women, forgave you when you apologized recently for everything all these years and the way you treated me and the kids…I was there, me, thru it all, still loving you, being there for you, always, year after year, until today. And the crazy-hard part, that pisses me off, SO FREAKING MUCH, is I actually STILL love you, truth….yet it was never good enough unless YOU wanted me, then it was peachy, until it wasn’t again. That doesn’t work for me now, not anymore… She has money and a black heart and is an actor in so many things, you have no idea. Me, I’m a broken yet strong loving and kind woman who has sacrificed for so long, who still loves you with all my heart…but you chose this…her, that you still KEEP telling me you DONT love at all because it’s not like that….but you chose her when I said you had to choose or lose me, and you chose her…her, over the woman you have loved for all these years that has genuinely invested years in loving you so well, but you chose her…so you have lost me for good now….repeating I guess in case the message I sent you was intercepted, again, by your golden goose or her FB or Google Family criminal ties, or in case you just ignored and dismissed as rant like so many other things I’ve explained from my heart to you…or if it was just simply not quite understood. There is nothing here, there, or anywhere any more. I will never be an interim for you ever again. Nothing remains because you chose to literally throw EVERYTHING away. You did that… So now, your show must still go on. I really hope it’s worth whatever financial gain you think is making it worthwhile, when probably the only one wanting you after she’s procured every ounce of dignity and integrity you actually used to have as a good man until you sold your soul and body to this sad old cronie, will be her…this one you just sold yourself to, moved in with now, the one that you can’t stand to even look at or deal with her kids you always say….that’s really sad, it actually makes me sad, the shallowness of the whole situation on everyone’s part, who lives like that and ever finds real joy??? Such a fake life, I’d rather be broke and real and happy than anything even remotely close to the deal with the devil you have now, it really sucks to see it all happen, you were such a good man once I always believed…and the fact that I love you, and you love me you STILL say even just a few DAYS AGO, but sadly you’re too shallow I guess now, or even too ignorant to realize, that at our age, and especially for my situation, this life of mine soon being so short, it really could have been enough and could have been magical like it always was with us you say…it coulda been all that baby, it kills me love wasn’t enough, it could a been so beautiful while we still had time. But you made your choice, so there is nothing left… Enjoy Louisiana. Goodbye My Heart, My T Always Your P