Dancing Casey with the Rainbow Sweater

Portland OR

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Casey, i saw on my fb photos of us on a date four years ago. i’m so sad that we aren’t friends anymore. one day i saw my fb show my first post about dating you and i sent it to you saying i was grateful to get to be your friend and love you (platonically was implied but maybe not understood) and you blocked me saying i was obsessed and in love with you. i love you, i love so many people, i love my friends, i love my past friends. when we dated i was absolutely in love with you, but then we had a year of friendship and then we had nothing. i got pregnant and you supported me when i was so scared. you helped me with my bike. you always wore a sweater with rainbow stripes. i wish you were still my friend. i wish i could show you all the growth from then to now. i’m medicated, in therapy, and i’m not homeless. i’m sorry when i was not nice to you when we’d get drunk and i was insecure after our transition to friends. i wish we were still friends. i wish i could tell you how sorry i am to have been so salty. i wish i could show you the me i am after 4 years of therapy and adjustment to medication. you’re one of the few friends i feel so bad about missing. it would be cool to talk. im not interested in any romance/sexual stuff since my partner died, regardless of with who. i wish i could convince you that i really changed as a person and as a friend and miss and value the time we spent together and our friendship before you cut me off. I totally understand why you would have cut me off, but it was just a misunderstanding. i tried to tell you i was so happy to get to be in your life for a whole year. i wish i could have cleared the miscommunication. you were a really good influence in my life when i desperately needed support. thanks, even if you never read this, your presence in my life was so important and you were one of my first friends in my life that i ever knew for a year. that was a really big thing for me. i hope you’re doing well and life is cool and fun. i love you, platonically. c u never (?) m