For brevity

East Lansing MI

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Yea it’s kinda psycho to post here but you’re not around anymore and I have so much I wish I could say to you so what the heck. And what better place to begin with ‘I f*cked up the possibility of a healthy relationship’ than on Craigslist? It’s like limbo wondering whether you can even think of me in a positive light anymore. And I could never blame you if you couldn’t and I could never believe you would. But I wish with all the love I have ever known and lost with you that it never would have went beyond friendship. And that’s a hard thing to say. F*cking hard. Because I miss you like hell, and you’re married now and what I wouldn’t trade in my soul to become the kind of girl you could’ve married but I may never be that for anyone…..what an absolute soul cleaving feeling to find someone I felt so right with only to know that fate would have me watching you marry and leave me whether it went toxic or not…..I can’t think of anything better so- I miss you like hell and I love you like a rabid dog that cannot let go of loyalty to my love for you but knows that if I were any closer than this message, I would just poison it again. You own more of my heart than I wish you did Adam. I know why you left. It’s okay.