Madelyne

Chouteau OK

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Madelyne, I miss you! Your soul touched mine in a way I will never forget. Every time I've looked into your beautiful eyes, peace and comfort came over me like a wave of hope, as if our souls were silently talking to one another in a spiritual language. When your arms were open to me I felt a confidence I can't have anywhere else. Your morning smile kept me smiling all day with the sunshine it gave me. I deeply regret anything I've done to make you or your friends feel uncomfortable with how I let my emotions show the worst of me. Never have I wanted to hurt anyone, but with the increasing distant I was feeling, the greater my pain, until I lashed-out in frustration; I didn't cope well with the blockers—I didn’t want to lose the sunshine, which only you can give me! You were right about everything that you told me, but having to hear it so harshly just crucified me; you made me see me through your eyes. I don’t want to be an ugly person, I don’t want you to think of me like that, and I value your words; everything you say. I was upset with everyone because I was scared of losing more of you. I really messed-up. Can you forgive me? Why can't we make peace to break tensions? I wish more than anything, you'd talk to me once again, the way we used to when we first met. My heart and mind cannot be free of you—my want for you is too much to forget, I need you in my life!