I’m lousy.

Joplin MO

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I know I am, and I take responsibility for the bad things I have done in order to sabotage myself and hurt other people. I love you. I don’t deserve anything close to what you’ve done for me. I don’t deserve any of it, let alone allll of this. I stopped keeping track. I don’t know what to do. I don’t remember perfectly, I know I’m supposed to apologize publicly, but I forget if that’s the only reason I haven’t seen you. Or why it continues.