When did I lose

Portland OR

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When did I lose you. When did your love turn so cruel and hateful. I know you blame me for it all you are dismissive and unfeeling to me bc of what I've done in past. You have done worse and yet I stayed and still fought. You don't notice me you don't want me in the way a husband should. You do not even hear me. We live in a ignorant lie. The love that conquers has become the love that destroys. You were my greatest strength my strongest bond my best alliance. Now you're just a guy who continues to break me while blaming me. I long for company and talk. I yearn deep in my soul to be touched. To feel passion and wanted and alive. To be needed and loved. To see that look in a eye of I'm the one the love and wonder. My laughs turned to sobs. My smiles fake and hurtful. My mind fractured. I'm not here anymore. I died and noone even knew or cared. You see a ghost and still have the audacity to say it's all my fault bc you don't feel I deserve to be loved right touched. Kissed. Treated like a wife whose adored. I'm nothing here and every day I fall deeper and deeper into a abiss that I am comfortable in. It's a new day and you haven't so much as had any interest in me. You grab your phone. I'm going back to bed bc I won't be noticed again today. Would you even noticed if I wasn't here anymore. I'm tired