Adgri. I just miss our connection.

Albuquerque NM

Description

Not a missed connection. I just miss our connection. It all started with an ad posted looking for a spinner girl and turned into something beautiful. I was ready to raise your child with you. You drove me to do better in life. I wanted to take care of you for the rest of my life. I still can't imagine being with anybody else. I never wanted anybody else and that's rare for me. I even cooked for you and i don't cook for anybody but myself. I have long time friends that have never tasted my cooking. I drove out to Phoenix just to bring you back home. Then you left and i don't know what to do now. My life has no purpose without you. You picked the worst time to leave. Valentine's day is on Monday and it looks like I'm going to be spending it alone again. I'm about to get thousands of dollars from my taxes and i don't have anyone to spend it on and it sucks. I thought our connection was stronger but i guess i was wrong. The worst part is that i don't even know what i did wrong. I love you and i wish you'd come back but I'm not gonna get my hopes up too high but i am hoping this is just a pattern and you're gonna come back before Valentine's day so that i can give you your gifts but only time will tell. I'll even get you a puppy if you come back. If not then i don't wanna stay in this town. I'm gonna leave. I'll probably end up in Vegas and then who knows after that. I just don't want to be here where everything reminds me of you. I'm just heart broken and don't know how to handle it. I wish someone would just tell me that everything is going to be alright. Becuase right now i just wanna end it. I don't wanna go on living if i have to live without you. I'm not weak though and i don't think i could ever kill myself. I can however, make some shitty decisions that will get me killed. Idk. It's just gonna take a lot of drugs and alcohol to forget you.