An ode to the limbo of you and I

Portland OR

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Though you are not near me, I can feel you. I have asked for distance.. it seems too easy. Sometimes when I don't hear from you I worry that it will be the last time. Perhaps this is provoked by foresight of our inevitable end or maybe I haven't learned from our past. I don't want to act like it's fine if you disappear from my life, it's not "ok". I hold a mirror to you, reflecting me. I want to know your good and ugly. The idea of you coming back home brings out the need for me to be better, to be the best me. How can I give my love, care, support, and yet we still can't connect on the level I need to. I've surrendered to the process. I'm not going to wait on you.I want clarity but above all inner peace. You know who you are.. if you feel me too and want to remain in my life tell me how you feel. Will I be someone you come home to after you're done exploring your worth? Our eyes are brown.🤎