I miss you KP

Columbus GA

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I think about you first thing in the morning and before I sleep. I miss you so much. You were my best friend. I'm so sorry. Not for how sad I am but for hurting you like I did. Ill never get over it even if you do. I hope you have already. I made a lot of bad decisions and it was my fault. I think a lot of my fear was that you had high expectations and deserved so much and I knew I'd never be in the position to make most of those things happen. Maybe the expectations were unrealistic at times but I still felt the shame of not being able to get there. In the end though I just wanted to be with you. In whatever way I could. I still do but once again I've stuck myself into a position that is very hard to get out of and doubt you'd want to take a chance like that. I probably got what I deserved. I just pray that you do as well, everything you wanted and happiness. There is so much I want to say. I figure you wouldn't care to hear it at this point. I just miss you and I messed up. I hope you see this but I hope you don't. I love you.