For the first in 14 yrs I feel I failed as a parent...

Concord NC

Description

I don't really know what I am doing here but for the first time in 14 years I feel like I failed as a parent. I have three kids that are well taken care of and until this past month everything has been fine. Well we've been managing but as far as they know life hasn't changed much. We had a flood in our home a while back and it caused us to have the stay in a hotel for the past few months due to us not being able to find and get accepted into a rental due to credit scores. My husband works full time and I would be to if my oldest son didn't have to be pulled out of school due to some pretty intense bullying that the school was determined they didn't have to deal with. Things start to get better we started getting money saved up to be able to provide a bigger deposit in hopes that may help us get a home and them my transmission went out on my car. It gave up on me in the middle of the road with two kids thankfully this lady noticed us struggling while everyone else was flying by and stopped to help me push while my ten year old steered it into a parking lot at the hospital where it sat for two days with a note attached to it and later a phone call from the hospital when I explained the situation they were understanding and said I could have as much time as I needed to get it and turned around and had it towed two days later. After paying up the four days of storage fees (they picked it up on a friday and I didn't get notified until Monday when I had finally had someone with car trailer that I could borrow for a very short time frame) and paid for them to ultimately tow it to a family members house all the money we had saved to fix it was gone. Last week we found out we were all covid-19 positive, it started with two of the kids and since we live in a hotel it quickly spread to all of us there's really no way to isolate from each other when there is only one room. This morning we had to pay for the room again and that was it we have nothing. We have $30 and that's gone when the pharmacy drops off the next bottle of meds for the kids. I called all the leaders in Covid help to try to get a safe place for us to be able to quarantine and be able to save Christmas but as a mom I failed! I wasn't able to work it out, while everyone is going to be out with family and friends and eating good holiday dinners there are families like mine stuck in hotels. There are moms and dads feeling like no matter how hard they tried to make it all come together that it didn't, there are kids in a hotel going to wake up hoping Santa didn't forget them this year and not understanding why he did. Your right we are all going to be okay it's easy to say when your not the one in those shoes. I didn't write this for a handout or for help in any way, I just needed to vent to someone, somewhere hoping that maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone. If you need to talk or just want someone to listen my ears are open. Thank you for your time and I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas!