Living with the consequences

West Kent Ave near Higgens ave, Missoula MT

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I just can't sorry this away. I am so stupid for Believing feeding my illness to repeatedly hurting the one I love till than they can take anymore was supposed to be in any way acceptable. Allowing metal instability and a fear that overwhelming past events are repeating, Making it virtually impossible to leave the house for weeks. Not intending to, But cause feelings of abandonment and more pain to my loved one. Are any lengths or hours of marriage counseling to repair the hurt, lost trust and feelings of abandonment, ever going to be enough. Do I have any right To hope you'll forgive me and The unconditional Love and trust I took for granted will return or is it gone with little to no chance of returning. I can't get upset when I'm feeling the pain of regret and lonelyness, or when I'm feeling ignored and abandoned and the hurt I caused is being returned 10 fold. I find myself praying for just a few minutes of what I have lost. I have noright to Hope for a second thought that I never gave. I can and will hold on to the moments of past feeling I'm blessed to recieve. Love you always, Your husband and Bai. Me.....