I need help with daily phone calls to me

Kalispell MT

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Hi, my name is Ally, I’m 28 years old. I need help with daily phone or video calls to me. I am chronically disorganized. If you saw me on the street you would have no idea! I have a smile, I try to be positive and enjoy each day, I look pretty decent but deep down I’ve been very depressed and I have struggled with maintaining my home. I have mountains of laundry and cluttered cabinets closets and drawers. Sometimes things GET OUT OF HAND and builds up and it becomes very overwhelming. (I say sometimes but it’s always). I want nothing more than to have a decluttered, minimalistic/organized home but at the same time, as quick as that desire to clean comes, it goes away and I find myself with zero desire or motivation to do anything. It’s like I need a complete rewiring of my brain, a total reset. I have all these ideas of what I want and what I know I need to be happy. I would like to be more active, I would like to eat better, I would like to be more organized, I would like to have a more structured routine, I would like to work out, all these things that I would LIKE to do but never actually implement. I could spend hours writing lists on all of the ways that I’m going to fix my life. And before I even finish I am already mentally exhausted and done. This is hindering my life and the potential of quality of life I could be giving to my children. Instead of focusing on arts and crafts, I focus on how I don’t want to do anything because the house is such a mess and my anxiety doesn’t want to add to the already mess of a house ! I’d rather people not come in my home because it’s a nightmare to get it company ready ! I know I need to look into therapy. But I was wondering if there was anyone in the world that would be willing to call me and check in on me. FaceTime me video call me tell me let me see what the house is looking like right now walk me through it. Say oh look at that that needs to get done like I literally need this, I need someone to hold my hand and quite literally retrain me!!! I don’t have any family nearby or friends. I have children. I have pets. I no longer work since coronavirus began. I’m now an at home mom. I also have a baby and another baby on the way. I need my life to change and I need help, I don’t know where to start, please help me. Desperate