I never knew

Scottsdale AZ

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I didn’t know you were going through so much then. Why didn’t you tell me? Why did you never just tell me any of it? I wish you would have. I had no idea how much you were were going through. I see now that I was pretty blind to how much everything you were dealing with effected you. Looking back it must have seemed that I was pretty untrusting and selfish. I’m sorry. That wasn’t ever my intention. I should have been there for you in some way. I just couldn’t completely believe any of it was real. Most of my life I’ve been told I’m paranoid or crazy for the way I’ve thought, predicted or “imagined” things. I honestly started to believe I was crazy too, which is scary, so I just thought I could ignore the thoughts and feelings and they would disappear until I was “sane” again. My mind had trouble believing what my soul ultimately knew was true. I should have known better. I should have trusted. It may be too late for us but at least you’ve been through your dark night and you made it. For so long now someone keeps almost instantly deleting my messages to you. I don’t know why but I have a feeling their intentions were accomplished. I doubt you’ll ever even see this one either but if you do just know that I always cared about you and thought of you everyday since I remembered you, since I knew. I’ll always wish you the best and pray for your happiness and success.