If I had known that the last time …

San Antonio TX

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…you held me, was going to be the last time I ever saw you…I would’ve tried to remember every little detail of that night to hold that moment close forever. I’d never let anyone know anymore that I’m still not okay, I can’t, I had to go on living for the people who need me. But I still can’t let go of the things that remind me of you, they stay with me, make me smile at times, other times, I cry. They say time heals all, but it’s been so long since that last moment with you, yet time has healed nothing. Still have your number in my phone, your email in my contacts, and I don’t know why, even still have a silly cupcake in the freezer from an event you took me to years ago, I don’t know why, all the things of you are still with me, and I don’t know why…but I’ll never admit it to anyone, it’s better that way, I hope if anyone else is struggling with loss of a love they thought they’d never lose, I hope you find strength to carry on, my prayers go out to you. 🙏