I really wish you were here

Missoula MT

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I smile on the drive to work I woke up tired but the buzzing in my ears has stopped And the cat greeted me with a kiss I find myself excited for the day Mundaness is a gift Curse capitalism for all it is But sometimes I relish in the work Filling coffee cups and giving out compliments Presenting food and creating smiles It’s fun to play pretend for a while I smile on the drive home Although I will only get 40 mins of peace at home before heading off to the next job Where I will care for people like me The ones who feel the sickness And sleep with shadows I play pretend here too I play pretend that I am not sick But perhaps I am not pretending Because the shadows haven’t been seen in months And I have not opened my skin Or drowned my sorrows in a strangers bed Perhaps I am healing And getting better I mean I’m smiling on the way to work hugging the friends I have Snuggling the cat Singing as loud as my lungs will allow Oh god Can I tell you? I am happy I am happy I am happy I do not feel the burn Well, not always It’s faded The loud song of loneliness has dissipated into a hum I’m smiling on the drive to work and Kissing the mirror And I Am healing I thank the sky I thank my bed I thank my friends I thank the ground How lucky I am To live