I wish I could text you

Oxnard CA

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Its been nearly four months since you said goodbye. Your number is still saved, your address. The last images of you burned into my brain. I hope you’re doing well. I miss you everyday, the ones that fill me to the brim with joy. The ones that make me feel like I’ve fallen under an ice covered lake. The days I’m suffocating and the days I could run a marathon and still sing a song after. I told you I loved you, but you couldn’t say the same. I don’t blame you. It’s not your fault. I just hope you’re okay. I dont think you’ll ever see this, but I hope you’re recovering. There are still so many questions I have, but I’ve accepted the silence as my answer. You begged me not to block you, but then you blocked me. So now I just sit and wait, hoping one day you’ll come reaching out. You’ll say it was all a mistake, that you missed me too. I know that might not happen, but for now I’m okay and I can sit and wait, just a little longer.