this is my fault.

West Sacramento CA

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Hey. You know who you are. At least I hope by now you do. If you ever see these before they get flagged. This is probably my only way of knowing you or someone who cares about you actually reads anything for you. Because God knows I haven't heard from you otherwise. Maybe that's because I don't deserve to. I lost control, even after the realization of the loss I still didn't stop trying to get your attention. Nothing creepy or anything of that nature to my knowledge but definitely enough to make you irate. I forgot the most important part of me wanting to be in your life till today when I was almost crushed by a 5 pound box with a wicker chair in it. Thank God my co-worker was able to advise me not to try to catch it because I may get killed if not, injured very badly. I didn't deserve you. And now I still don't because I still made such an attempt that I may as well have been some drunk guy hitting on the designated driver at a bar and not understanding that she don't wanna be there let alone hear me slur sweet nothings in her ear. I'm sorry. I mean that. I do feel dumb and understand if you never say another word to me. Because I do love you and it is very blind. But that means that you can't be wrong in my mind. So if you think I'm not the right guy. I love that about you. If you decide I need to learn from this by never having the opertunity to be in your presence again. I love you for that. But it hurts like hell. And I'll never forget that I fucked up with someone that had that effect on me. Because I thought it was a myth. I thought it was a lie. Till I met you. And you changed my whole life. I wanted to be better, But didn't know how, I wish I'd said lesser. Can't change it all now. I wonder what it would be. If I had you here with me. You may never belong to me. But that's my own fault. And this I do believe. I've learned to wait and see. But it's worthless, If I can't be yours to keep. I'll always wish to be. I'll always wish for we..... If you ever decide you wanna make a mistake I'd love to be that mistake. I promise I won't break your heart but I'll probably disappoint you a few times. But I won't ever leave you. Even if you leave me I'd still take you back every time. I promise I would be the best mistake you've ever made. To the most beautiful woman on earth. (M) From the dumbest man to ever live. (B)