Lonely, Sad, have not had "any" in over 15 years

Glendale AZ

Description

Not sure why I am even writing this but I cannot ogre the emptiness inside me any more. I am clean, good looking guy and yes, I need to lose a few pounds but my wife stopped any physical contact with me over 15 years ago. She has a million excuses and I have tried everything to fix this but every time I address one excuse she has another and I so lonely and sad I literally cry at night when I lay in bed and try to remember what loving human contact felt like. I stay with her because of our child who loves both of us but I don't know how much more I can take. I have never cheater but feel I have no choice. I am going crazy and the pit inside me just keeps getting bigger Thats all, just needed to vent