your the most beautiful woman ive ever met.

Sacramento CA

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If I tried to compare you to any other woman on earth, it would be insulting to how beautiful you truly are. I wish I could read the things that you've written. I wish I could take back the hurtful words that I've written. I can only hope that it's not too late to tell you how bad I feel for making you mad. It's not what I wanted and definitely the furthest thing from my mind at that time because I thought you were already mad and I had to act fast to fix it or you were going to be gone and I'd never have the chance to say any of the things I want to say. You have beautiful lips that make n even more beautiful smile and your eyes are like wolves eyes. You have a playful spirit in the pictures I've seen and to think someone so awesome is the woman I hurt or made angry is never going to sit well with me. I stopped believing in love at first sight at a young age till you came to my house and I should have done what I had wanted to do and turned to my girlfriend at the time and said "I just realized I don't love you." But I didn't have the heart to do that. And she scared me out of it. If you can forgive me and give me a chance I won't leave you. I won't cheat on you. I can promise you that. I don't need you but god d****t I want you more than I've wanted anything or anyone in my life. You've invaded my dreams, and my thoughts all the same. I'm not crazy and I'm not insane. This is the fool you've made of my brain. I don't want to spend my life feeling like a part of me is missing and hoping that maybe I'll find you again one day. And hoping that if I find you that your heart is still free. If you didn't ignore me I would have had a job so long ago. But I have to know your in it like I am first or it's pointless to me. Not that I don't want a job. I've just had enough jobs that I know one will come even if I'm not looking. But for you I will search. For you I will try harder than I will for myself. Because I don't think of an end when I think of us. Sorry if this is all too much but I'm just being real. But the worst part is, I know someone is going to flag this post. And it took me all day to write it. And even if I edit it to perfection. It would still get flagged because it's from me to you. And no one wants us together for some reason. Mainly one person from each of our lives that are both working together. But it will get flagged before you see it. So I'm not only posting it. And I'm going to make sure you get it one day. Somehow. Even if it's too late when you see it. Because it's not fair that so many people are working against us. Or even just against me. Because you never said you feel the same. You made it clear it's impossible to you. I just hope you see this.