My whole life...

Corvallis OR

Description

I was raised horrifically and have post-trauma because of it. I've spent my life believing that only women who also suffer from childhood trauma could possibly relate to me, but every relationship I've tried in my life results in being with someone who've carried their abusive experience into their own behavior. So now at 50 yrs old and not being able to take it anymore I'm finding myself very alone and friendless, and since the pandemic is still a major thing having no hope of making a friend. I'm deeply regretting missed connections over my whole life as I eschewed decent healthy-minded women who had happy normal childhoods who have no need to bring any kind of violence into a relationship. Kindness and gentleness should be the way people are treated in their own home, being home should be a good experience.