Not Talking Makes It Worse

Medford OR

Description

I've never been so angry and yet missed some one so much in my life before... We used to talk for hours about all sorts of things, we helped one another, we were there for one another. You were the only one that would start conversations with me, and was excited to hear from me even if it had only been a few hours since my last response. I was there for you in your time of need and understood where you were coming from and why we were doing the things we were. We gave one another confidence. And then you moved, you said you wanted to keep in touch. Things were ok to start and then less and less and then... I was there in your time of need and now I need some one and it feels as if no ones there. I reached out... My phone goes off constantly and ever time I hope its some one, anyone, to talk to but it never is. I should be mad as hell and want nothing to do with you any more and all I want is the person I connected with that I could talk to about any thing with out any fear, with the understanding and compassion I gave you. You told me we can talk any time, well I need to talk now, talk yesterday even if its about nothing just to have a distraction from life thats going on right now. I still understand what you did was a hard decision to make, I am making those same decisions right now. Even though I make those decisions for no one but me that doesn't mean I don't need support. I've been called strong by you and many others but strong only means it can take more of a beating before the cracks start to show and strong means it takes longer for those cracks to heal. You said we could talk any time still. Well talk, please.